Why.........?

I am: impure, imperfect, sometimes broken, sinful, full of desires for myself, confused, and a mess! Yet, he still wants me, and all that I am. Why he loves me I will never understand for I do not love myself, nor do I love some of my thoughts and actions. So why, why are we surrounded by the ones need so desperately and don't deserve? Why were we given a second chance at life? WHY? We did nothing to deserve that chance. Yet, God gave it to us anyway. WHY? I can't fathom.......but the bible says he loved us so, so much that he gave is ONLY son to die, so that we may live. Think about it? Giving up what is most precious to you?!?! So that others may live?!? Other people that he cared for and loved as much as his own son! His own son! We are all sinners, rescued by God. Yes, it is hard to think that someone knows us better then we know ourselves and knows our inner most secrets and desires, and that that same "person" STILL loves us and gave everything he had for us. But, he did and he is God, and he is in control. Which I must remind my self of each and everyday. Through everything. Through every situation. God is in Control and has a divine plan. God, is powerful. God, is God. There are so many words that describe him and that people have used to describe him. But there is no word for him other then the fact that he..............is.................God.

On the wings of a butterfly my soul takes flight.

As the wind blows through my hair I cry out!

For this life is all I have.

This life forces good and evil together.

It forces things of God and things of this world to collide.

It forces me to choose.

Choose between easy and hard, good and evil, God and the world.

Among all the distractions this world offers I must focus on God.

For once my vision of Him is lost................so am I.

Love is

Love, is honesty, even if your afraid of hurting the other one.

Love is trust, through everything and everyone.

Love is selflessness, putting the others needs above your own.

Love is pain, when your not with the one you love.

Love is joy beyond measure, when the one you love is holding you in their arms

whispering " I'll never let you go."

Love hurts, Love rejoices.

You cannot have Love without pain.

For with out the pain of life one would never know how love truly felt.

The lost may seek and never find,

but the found may not be found at all,

but lost in the truth of what is in their heart and what is in their mind.

The lost may suffer and the found may still,

but neither is more different than the other,

for they both are lost in the hearts of their minds.

For one's mind can never truly be understood on one's own,

but through the Lord,

the lost and the found will seek and both will find, if they seek through the Lord.

Girl Loves Boy

As my heart pounds walking to your doorstep, I wonder what you'll

say, I wonder how you feel, and I wonder if you love me too. But

it's to late to turn back now I rang the doorbell. As I hear your

footsteps coming to the door, I feel scared as to your reaction,

I feel powerless to your effect on me, and I feel love. As the

door opens, you step out and say "Hi" and I can't help but

through my arms around you. You grin and ask "What was that for?"

I give a nervous smile and say "Because I Love you." You stare at

me for a minute and I long for your answer, I long for any sort

of reaction, and I long for your love. After an awkard and

seemingly endless pause you look up into my eyes and dazed you

ask, " You love me?", I nodded anxiously, then without being able

to restrain myself, quickly ask "Do you like me?", "No" you

replied. Your answer broke my heart, it tore my very being apart,

your answer made it feel as though I had just dropped my love at

your feet and you trappled it. As I turned, in tears, to run

away, you grab me by the arm and pull me into a tight hug and

whisper in my ear " No, you don't understand, I've never liked

you, I've always loved you!".

Fragments II

Fragments of who I am shine through broken glass of which the wind shattered, as you have shattered my soul, with your hate, your rejection and your pain.

Fragments I

Fragments of who I was before I met you, float by and I see I was truly ment to be with you. By your side, as the tidal waves of this world try to smuther us under the darkness. We'll stand taller then they ever thought we would.